the k factor

solution

kendyce — Sun, 30 Oct 2011 19:27:16 +0000

this is a post about solutions.
too much time has been wasted, too many emails, too many conversations, too many discussions related to problems. but i know of a solution. the key is, it’s freely given from one person to another. you can get it in towns across america and the world. i am not forgetting, deleting, ignoring, or regretting. if things are not palatable there is clearly something wrong with my perspective. i try not to create alternate versions. i strive for acceptance.

personal

kendyce — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 18:37:29 +0000

principles
playmates
playpens
playthings
play
pray
principal
principality
place
plural
plur
prattle
pratfall
pragmatic
program
pride
presence
purse
person
personalities

box of chocolates

kendyce — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 05:01:29 +0000

sometimes my brain does not move fast enough. someone had a box of candy.

i knew this: “they are shaking a box of see’s candy to offer me some.”

and all I could think was: “that is a white container with brown things in it.”

but i know that’s not right and so i say, “what is that?”

and they sigh, and say, “you always act like you don’t know what is going on.”

a nice thing

kendyce — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 00:53:11 +0000

Feeling grateful for a nice little thing.

This morning I got a text message from a friend who left the country today. I wasn’t able to see them because I was visiting with family about 2 hours away, til late last night. I felt it was pretty cool how my friend thought of me, a quick exchange from the airport before their long flight.

My family members are leaving tomorrow morning. I was so happy to be with them for the day. We went for some sightseeing and then had dinner. Who knows when these folks will be able to visit again… It’s nice to be able to do things like that. But I had to get home because i worked in the morning, and I started the drive home, a bit too late. Also, it would have also been nice to say farewell to my friend in person, but that didn’t happen either. When I got home I was so tired I basically passed out without really getting ready for bed. I woke up with aches and pains in my shoulder and neck, and I slept in too late. I hobbled around and made it to work OK.

That’s all.

never married

kendyce — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 08:24:04 +0000

I have never been married. someone’s been going around saying I’m divorced. Can’t be divorced if you’ve never been married. Just sayin’.

be careful

kendyce — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 08:53:07 +0000

Or don’t.

That person is (fill in the blank).

I am (fill in the blank).

Do it, if you like that sort of thing. Doing nothing is another option. Choose what you like. Don’t choose what you don’t like.

How difficult is it to discern what is likeable and what is repulsive?

Laughter. Sunlight. Flower petals. Spoilt milk. Whining. Mold.

Not everything is so clear, not everything is black and white. but I’m certain the right choice will always present itself. No fooling!

bullies

kendyce — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 02:25:56 +0000

Bullies are wooly
They are not funny
Bullies are big and fat and mean
They do not smile
Bullies write you mean notes
They eat messy food in bed and wipe it on the blanket
Bullies are smelly
They pick at sores and scabs and wipe it on you
Bullies break things
Bullies don’t take care of things
Bullies yell at you
They don’t know how to be nice
They only care about themselves
They are greedy
They are nasty
They blame it on you

drugs, baby

kendyce — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 00:31:12 +0000

when someone takes drugs it can get bad fast. i think about babies eating candy. not good. and we’re all little kids still.

someone was talking about how they got drugs. crossing county lines to go to different doctors. paying for 20- or 30-pill prescriptions. paying for therapy to back up their claim to the doctor. going to urgent care facilities. getting people in other places to send drugs. using their last credit card.

paying to keep playing a game. playing. paying.

this person said, “i know i will die if i keep doing this.”

this person’s experiences sounded so much like someone i knew that it scared the shit out of me. one reason it scared me was because i co-signed the bullshit. for years. at least three years.

drugs, baby. drug babies. i am pretty sure that a person uses what their role model or parent uses.

i am not snow white made of virgin silk, untarnished silver, melt in the rain marshmallows, wool spun by angels. far from it. but i am not a drug baby.

so in regards to this person, the one i know. whatever they say or do that is spiteful and hateful toward me, i still hope good things for them, and i hope they don’t die.

calistoga sparkly water

kendyce — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 07:01:58 +0000

Oh goodness this stuff is good! Why did I not discover it til today? I love the fruity fizzy chill.

living cheap living rich

kendyce — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 20:22:05 +0000

A friend was just talking about their job. No raises for three years, no company calendar, no overtime, no more money to go around.

One part of my brain screams: “I’ll gladly swap jobs with you!” How I think I would love to be back in that business again.

Another says I have it pretty good right now. Money-wise, it is pretty tight. Way under the poverty line. I’ve been sickypoo achy, sniffly sneezy and upside-down since Monday and I’ve only left my house once since tuesday. I finished up a tough semester at school and will have to redo a particularly difficult class.

It is so much easier to complain about things I have no control over.
But that gets boring after awhile. I’d rather be happy about what I have than piss and moan about what I don’t!
What a change in perspective that is. I’ve learned a lot in 11 months, and through living on my own.

I’ve got more expenses, less free time and less disposable income, I have a much richer life.

Trimming the fat has never killed me….even when there seems to be no fat left to trim.

I like to remind myself, what’s important isn’t so much what I have but what I do with it.

Something greater than me in the universe is taking care of me. Thank goodness, cause I know I can’t do it all myself!

Thinking about the example of the “cheap” company with no money for calendars. Wow, I get to work at a job that pays me every month, and I get to do something that is rewarding and which I’m skilled at. I have great coworkers and a wonderful boss and management team. I am going to get a box of new business cards, and I just received a calendar for 2010.

I get to have caring, loving relationships with friends and family. I’m learning how to truly relate to others. we support each other in achieving success. we respect each other.
I have water and food. I have a safe place to live. There is public transportation, and because I am enrolled in college courses, I ride for very low cost.
being able to enroll at college is amazing, and I get to choose the classes.

I have the opportunity to take care of myself and what I need.

I can keep in contact with people who are far away, as often and frequently as we choose!

This morning I woke up to the clock radio, hearing two local musicians playing in the studio.

Next week I’m planning to travel to another state and spend christmas with my family. So much to be grateful for!